on who I am...

I am...

...glad to be back to writing and sharing. I was forced to take my MacBook back to BestBuy to get some work done to it. I always hate having to do it because it seems to take a few weeks. I've been using Bobby's IPad, which by the way, is so not the same as my laptop. I missed it dearly and hoping I won't have to go through this sort of withdrawal for a long long time. I'm back!

...tired of this heat here in Philadelphia. It's not even so much the heat but the humidity. It's killer and really hard to enjoy the summer. I'm trying my best not to complain about it too much but it's so hard! 

...excited for a trip up to the Pocono Mountains tomorrow. We are heading up for a shindig that Bobby's cousin is hosting at her boyfriend's house. It will be a great time and I'm pretty happy to be able to say that I've been to the Pocono's before we move back to Seattle. We are actually planning on having a little camp out! Pitching a tent and sleeping over for the night. I would choose going to the woodsy mountains over going to the beach any day. 

...kind of freaking out that in just one months time my little boy is going to be turning five years old! Mind blown. I cannot believe it. In this year alone Sebastian has come so far and I'm really looking forward to him growing and learning in the next year. I'll be doing everything I can to get him prepped for Kindergarten, which is just plain 'ol scary to think about! I always find myself give Sebastian one of those, "Are you for real?" looks. I still can't believe I have this little being who looks up at me with his big brown eyes and says mom. All I know is that I will savor every minute of this time that I have with him. Teetering in between him being old enough to do so much on his own and then yet still needing me for so much more. 
He's an exhausting fellow but he's also my best friend. And it's going to stay that way for all my days. 

...scared, nervous, guilty, staying strong and so many more emotions when I think about my father going under surgery next week. Put under a knife and cut open. I pray to universe that everything will go as planned. I don't want to think about anything but positive thoughts. There's really no sense. I'm so close to finally being back home to spend time with the first ever man that I've ever loved. My dad means the world to me, more than I think I would of ever imagined. In the end, I am so very proud of my dad and the fact that he is putting his health first. That hasn't been something that he's done in the past. Everything else came first. 
I am blessed to have a wonderful step-mom who has been there for my dad in so many ways. She is a smart, sensitive and a supportive wife to my father which puts my soul at ease at times like these. 

...shamelessly done with all four season of the new 90210 television series on Netflix. As much as it pains me to admit that I've fallen in love with all the characters and their stories, well I have and I don't care what you think. It happened and that's that. As far as the television goes I haven't really been watching much only because there's nothing ON! Ok that's not entirely true. I've been hooked on True Blood (surprised?), Teen Wolf (so freaking good!) and Under the Dome. Under the Dome is new and so I've only seen one episode but I have the highest of hopes. Come on, it's Stephen King for gods sake! Also I'm still keeping up on Defiance which is okay. Anyone have any recommendation? 

...becoming somewhat of a night owl as of late! Exclamation mark because that's never been the case. It actually really excites me. I have always been one to go to bed early. I get up early and go to bed early. Lately though I'll stay up doing things and when I get around to looking at the clock it's like whoa! It's that late? Cool. 

...such a listy list maker. I have a note book full of lists and many notes to even keep those lists organized. I have a tough time with not making lists. Sometimes I wonder what others think of all my notebooks full of lists...

...thankful for all the people in my life. And for that matter, all the people who I chose not to include in my life. I strongly believe in karma and in the end I do what I think is best for me and my family. I am constantly thinking about the future and the people that will be in it, some I know for sure will be there no matter what and some I know I will never let back in for good reasons. I'm thankful for my free strong mind and all those who rally around me. Hurray for my pack! 

xoxo.